THANKFUL TO BE A MOTHER

Yesterday was Mother's day and yes there are days that I wonder if I did a good job. You know the days when your daughter comes in with a tattoo. When she decides to just go to a two year college instead of a four year college. I have to remember that I did my best when raising her then I beat myself up when she doesn't make the decisions that I would have made for her. The good things she does majorly out way the bad, I want her to be perfect and make all the right choices but God continually reminds me that I have not always made the right choices and am not perfect so why do I expect it from her.
I know that God blessed me with her and she was so sweet yesterday. She made lunch and she wanted to be sure that she made things that I could eat and that I had on my diet. She made grilled salmon with dill sauce and saute green beans with garlic and a small baked potato and for dessert strawberries with fat free cool whip. It was a beautiful day. Thank the Lord for children.
Today I when to the gym and only got to work out for 25 minutes. I changed the time I go to 4:00 and the time got away from me and I did not leave the office till 4:25 so the did not give me much time before I when to pick up my husband from work. Tomorrow is another day and I will do better.

MY WEEK OF STRUGGLES

This week has really been a struggle. A lot of entertainment at work and me being weak. I gained a pound and I am really beating myself up. I can make up a lot of excuses but I know that I need to be stronger. I did make it to the gym 4 days this week. Doing the stationary bike, weights, ab crunches and inner and outer thighs. I do this for 45 minutes per day. I think what I am doing also is that when I go to the gym I feel so good and don't focus on what I am eating and feel that just going to the gym is all I need. I also need to make sure that I have the right food in my home. It gets hard when you have others in the home that does not need to diet and it makes it hard preparing food that they will be able to eat also. I need to get back on track and stay focused when I am eating and feeling good about myself. I also need to stay focused on God and know that with his help I can overcome.

SURGERIES OVER

I have gone through 2 surgeries on both hands for carpal tunnel. The pain and numbness I had in my hands and arms is all gone. It is like night and day, my arms and hands were numb but they were in pain. You will not understand this only if you are suffering with carpal tunnel. The worst part of all of this is the nerve test I had to do. If you are ever told you have to have the test be ware it is painful. It does not last long it just hurts going through it. Just had the stitches out on my right hand and have to do light duty for 6 weeks.
I am so eager to get back to the gym. I will begin going back Monday. I still have a lot of pain in my right hand and still wearing a bandage on it. I wear splints at night so I don't accidentally bend my hands the wrong way while I am asleep. I will have to wait on lifting weights till my 6 weeks is over but I can walk and do the abe machine. I have lost 8 pounds and I am so excited. I felt that since I have not been able to exercise like I wanted and being out of town and eating food that I didn't not know the points. I kept a list of the food just have not been able to post. Hopefully I can get back on track. I have a month before we go on vacation in Tennessee and another wedding reception. This time I will focus on foods that I know the points and the ones that I am not sure eat smaller portions. I need to keep my focus on losing the weight and making life changes. I need to remember that this the way I need to be eating the rest of my life or the weight will come back.